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I can’t believe it. I just finished my workout and that’s 2 times in 3 days. I can’t remember the last time I worked out every other day. Its been at least a year. I’m really getting excited about losing the weight. The only thing I need to work on now is my diet. That’s still the biggest struggle. I found an exercise I love. Its Belly dancing. You can pick it up at most Walmart’s, I got mine at a new age shop downtown that I love. Its called Belly Dancing For Beginners. (Neena and Venna) are the girls who do the DVD. Now let me be honest, I’m not the type of person to go to the gym for 3 hours a day and kill myself lifting weights and running on a treadmill. For one, I cant do three hours in the gym right away, There’s just no way. For two I am one of those people who typically does a workout for a day or for 2 maybe 3  but I tend to fall off the wagon and get run over by it.  With this workout its fun and I wanna Shimmy all the time! Its awesome. I am even going to start getting the kids I babysit for to do it with me as a fun little exercise.

The two biggest things I’m struggling with are Diet and Emotions. I didnt put the weight on over night and I’m sure you ladies and gents agree that some of it was put on by stress or some negative feeling. As I’m losing the weight, releasing tention and journaling, I’m finding alot of those feelings come up again. When I first started years ago I thought it was only a matter of exersicing. Its much more then that. The emotional part of it is almost the hardest part. We have to push though those feelings, experience them and let them go. I hate feeling vulnerable just like everyone else. I’ve always stuffed it away but stuffing it made me stuff myself in my jeans later on. Its rough. I’ll make it though. As long as I journal like crazy and be around my family I wont have problems. Besides who can resist a 2 year old’s giggle. haha. No one. And they say “tha teekools” I dare ya not to crack a smile.